Life with Tina was so confusing, disorienting and confounding. It could seem like there were two Tina's or that she was in a kind-of Shrodinger's quantum state where she could exist in two contradictory states at once. She loved me and at the same time, she didn't. She was somehow simultaneously faithful and disloyal.
It was confusing and destabilizing to me. It's hard to imagine the chaos going on behind her stunning, bright hazel eyes. The webs and pathways holding her tenuous, contradictory reality together must be so astoundingly complex. Only someone with Tina's intelligence could manage a semblance of normalcy, which she did, but as I continued to get closer, the cracks were showing. She maintained different worlds and sowed discord between to prevent them colliding. When they did occasionally, inevitably collide, things got messy and complicated and Tina struggled.
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